Today I am grateful for…
…remembering a full year. There are seasons that I barely remember over the last seven years. Summers and Springs are lost, due to my alcoholism. But memories of 2012 remains vividly in my mind. That alone, being sober for this almost entire year, makes 2012 so very special.
…the lack of drama. I desperately wanted to be spared from any extreme drama this year, I wanted enough peace for me to sober up and to heal. And now when looking back, I realise it is precisely what I got! This is the first whole year, in my entire life, that I have lived through without any greater hardships to deal with. How amazing is that!
…having started getting my apartment in order.
…having learned to live outside the comfortable cocoon, that is my home. This week it will be two months that I have lived with mum. It sure has been a lesson learned, though I must admit that being so close to moving back home (this week or next) is making me impatient. Today when in my apartment, and having noticed that exactly nothing has been done for eleven days, had me grinding my teeth. But… I still can do nothing but to wait. I have to remind myself to relax, let go and to be patient.
…a lovely day out, downtown in Stockholm. Not only window shopping, but I also found a set of pens that several Zentangle artists have mentioned – the Sakura Micron Pens. Can’t wait to try them out!